Hey Guys!
So I'm sorry I haven't written in a while. Things have been super hectic and crazy since the last time we talked. I can't even keep track of it all it went by so fast. I think I could take all of the things that have happened to me and create a million kindness/life lessons about it, or at least it feels that way. I just moved back from college after a crazy stressful week of finals and other things. I've applied for a job at over ten different places. I'm helping my family move my grandpa out of his apartment to a new apartment in Douglassville (a long emotional sob story comes with that). Those things itself among many other things are sort of spinning me round in circles, and sometimes its hard to keep a steady pace going.
Like for example, my mom will talk about a kid in high school or grade school from a family that she or I know very well. She'll talk about how they are growing up and getting so big. What they're getting into, or what they're likes and dislikes are. Then she'll say they're age, and then it hits you. If you're anything like me you'll say something along the lines of "wow I'm old now . . ." even though being nineteen isn't actually that old... (ps. I think my birthday happened after we last talked... happy birthday to me! :))... However its comes in this wave of realization of how much time has passed between the then and the now and what you have become is so much different then what you were back then. Hopefully the memories are good, and you have no regrets.
However what I've come to realize lately and have been trying to take to heart the old saying that "its not about the journey, its about the destination". Before I couldn't see it in myself because all my brain to do is think about how I can get from point A to point B in the quickest, most efficient manor possible. In some cases it serves me well, like if I'm walking in heels or walking with my grandpa, or driving. However sometimes it works against me. While on these journeys I forget to stop and smell the roses and take everything in. I have a friend who does though. He'll tell me about the adventures he has and along the way describes the most minute details I wouldn't have even thought of.
So after I hang out with him, I always remind myself to slow down and to take in what life has to offer. I try to hang on to more of the smaller details because those are the things that will help me remember the actual journey instead of just A to B. It's like if you got lost on your way to someplace you had never been before. You'll always remember that journey because it was your first time and you got lost, so you had to take in the land and the scenery to find where you were going. This is like that, except you're not lost. You just take everything in.
I don't regret anything in my life that I can think of. The most important events in my life I have tried to savor and remember to the highest degree. I have keepsakes from all of my adventures in everything I do. I'll never forget the good times and the bad times are all just learning experiences you have to take in to grow, you don't need to necessarily savor every detail, I certainly don't. So living your life from point A to point B isn't always a bad thing. But never forget to slow down and stop to smell the roses, those will make the good memories more substantial, and sweet.
